Ok, so now that the cat is out of the bag and I can finally confidently say I am pregnant, I have a few thoughts i want to get out there.
It's amazing how different I feel this time around. I wanted my other babies, of course, but this time, I so desperately prayed for this pregnancy and the ability to finally put November behind me, it feels like a true miracle. I was specifically praying to be pregnant before November, and then I specifically prayed to hear the heart beat yesterday, even though it was early, and God graciously answered. He did not have to - He could have chosen to teach me through more waiting, but He answered these prayers in the way I wanted.
As far as pregnancy updates, I am going to try to curb them to the blog and not post them on face book. I know all too well how hard it can be after a loss or when dealing with a period of time in which you cannot get pregnant to read pregnancy update after pregnancy update. I do not think anyone is wrong to put them out there on facebook, but I know I have friends who are struggling with loss and infertility, and I want to protect them. So, if you are curious about my pregnancy news (hi family!) then you can read here. If you prefer not to know about it, then feel free not to read. I feel this is the best way to be able to journal my thoughts, feelings, and news without bringing unnecessary pain to people.
And finally, I want to be pregnant! So, if you catch me complaining, please remind me how badly I wanted this! I know I have a tendency to complain and I am determined not to - that was another painful thing for me, particularly right after November. Logging on to facebook and hearing pregnant women complain about their symptoms was so hard because I wanted to trade places with them so badly. So, no complaining here! And if I slip up, someone give me a nice slap upside the head.
Last night Miss N decided to tell the cashier at pizza hut "My mommy has a baby in her tummy!" I guess she is excited! That makes me happy, although she really wants a baby brother. Hopefully she will be happy either way!
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