A Few Thoughts

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Ok, so now that the cat is out of the bag and I can finally confidently say I am pregnant, I have a few thoughts i want to get out there.

It's amazing how different I feel this time around. I wanted my other babies, of course, but this time, I so desperately prayed for this pregnancy and the ability to finally put November behind me, it feels like a true miracle. I was specifically praying to be pregnant before November, and then I specifically prayed to hear the heart beat yesterday, even though it was early, and God graciously answered. He did not have to - He could have chosen to teach me through more waiting, but He answered these prayers in the way I wanted.

As far as pregnancy updates, I am going to try to curb them to the blog and not post them on face book. I know all too well how hard it can be after a loss or when dealing with a period of time in which you cannot get pregnant to read pregnancy update after pregnancy update. I do not think anyone is wrong to put them out there on facebook, but I know I have friends who are struggling with loss and infertility, and I want to protect them. So, if you are curious about my pregnancy news (hi family!) then you can read here. If you prefer not to know about it, then feel free not to read. I feel this is the best way to be able to journal my thoughts, feelings, and news without bringing unnecessary pain to people.

And finally, I want to be pregnant! So, if you catch me complaining, please remind me how badly I wanted this! I know I have a tendency to complain and I am determined not to - that was another painful thing for me, particularly right after November. Logging on to facebook and hearing pregnant women complain about their symptoms was so hard because I wanted to trade places with them so badly. So, no complaining here! And if I slip up, someone give me a nice slap upside the head.

Last night Miss N decided to tell the cashier at pizza hut "My mommy has a baby in her tummy!" I guess she is excited! That makes me happy, although she really wants a baby brother. Hopefully she will be happy either way!

Comments

Juliet said…
We are all so happy for everyone! And so thankful that you are also thoughtful of others who are trying to have a child.

And, yes, everyone will be happy whether it is a boy or girl. Although this morning it made me laugh when Gary prayed for a boy...then added or girl.
September 30, 2011 at 8:04 AM
Tammy Mommy said…
So happy for you, friend! I admire your consideration of your friends, but honestly, wouldn't mentioning your girls possibly "hurt" those who wish they had kids and your hubby, those who wish they weren't single?

Sometimes, I struggle when I see people post all kinds of things about their homes or other aspects of their lives that seem far better than my own, but isn't that my own issue with contentment? Just a thought.

I hope you can enjoy all aspects of your pregnancy and new arrival, once he or she comes, whatever that means to you. On that note, what's the "due date"? ;)
September 30, 2011 at 9:27 AM
Forever For Evie said…
I'm so happy for you!!! That's awesome that you were able to hear the heartbeat! That first time hearing it is so precious...knowing there's a precious little life growing inside of you, and actually being able to hear it! So amazing!! I'll be reading your updates for sure!! I miss being pregnant, and secretly I want another one, but obviously I can't complain about anything! ha!
Will you guys be finding out what you're having?
September 30, 2011 at 10:10 AM
Jalenagraham said…
I am so overjoyed for you. I know what it's like to be pregnant after a loss (3 losses, to be exact), and God is amazing in how He answers so many details. You will be amazed throughout this pregnancy. And, when you look into the eyes of this little one, it will be as if you snagged a glimpse of heaven.....just wait - You think you're blessed now - God has so much more blessing to do for you through this baby.
October 2, 2011 at 5:16 PM
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