The Test

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SO,

I just took a pregnancy test.

It came back positive.

I am not ready to announce this to the world yet. Last time I did that, well, we miscarried.

I'm elated.

I'm not sure when I should tell Tim. See, this wasn't our "plan."

But, I've had the "baby bug" for a while now.

It's not going away.

And, well, knowing it was a possibility this month made me a very happy, albeit nervous, woman.

Now we shall see if this little babe sticks.

Whew, our house is going to be crowded if it does.

Crowded, but full of love.

So many thoughts. I guess I will just save this for now and see what comes. . .

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